Haiz long time no online... coz my computer had spoil recently... so suay ar... well guess my day for this week... Yesterday went to eat with daniel they all... long time never spend time together like this liao... it was so funny... well and today i went to sentosa again... my motive of going there is to sun tan( getting a red brownish skin) but instead i'm blacker as before. Going to be fairer liao... so black not nice de... =(... tomorrow is another week liao... week and week had passed and it's going to reach 'O' level day liao... so stress... but never mind gonna work harder for it!

Today i'm having my Mother Tongue prelim exams again as i'm going to retake my Mother Tongue 'O' level... After my exams i went back to the classroom as i'm not supposed to go home after the exam but to continue lessons. When i went back i found out that i had failed my E.maths. But i did not expect that i failed that badly... At that moment i'm very sad but i did not cry out. I really do not know how to improve myself n such a short time. Till now i had failed p.o.a, E.maths, English, Geography. But i'm not that confirmed yet... Cause some of the subjects had not been moderate yet. But i can confirm that my p.o.a, E.maths are gone case... I'm such a failure. I really do find myself a failure in everything and not only in studies. Well sometimes i wonder are those people around me true to me? Or are they making use of me? i cannot understand or read their mind. But if the answer is yes, i can't say anything or comment to it. Right now i feel so helpless and sad that i really never feel before...

Today i went to Sentosa to relax myself... had to wake up early... went with aaron, winson, yong bin, yao ming, my sister and her friends... We reach there in the afternoon as before we went in to Sentosa we went to eat something to fill up our stomach. Aaron came to Sentosa a bit later as he had flag day (so pityful had to got o Sentosa alone!!!Haha) At first i thought i can be more tanned after this trip but as usual i'm not that tanned after all cause it started to drizzle a bit... today the sun was not that bright too... we played volleyball at the siloso beach... Haha first time ever i had play till my hand turns red... it's quite painful... but i did enjoy myself... i did played basketball there but the court there was strange (only half a court, the line i can't see and the board was small). Then we rest a while... Yong bin and i decided to went to another side of the beach and take a look... The view there was nice as i can see the whole beach... and it's cooling and refreshing... erm maybe when you are feeling down i supposed you can go there... there give you a soothing feeling... that's a suggestion by me.

haiz... 'O' level only left 7 weeks... but i'm still slacking... what's going on with me??? but for this week of holiday i went back to school for p.o.a lesson... although it's boring and the duration is quite long but i did try to learn something... but when school reopens i'm getting back my prelim results. I don't know how to face my result or maybe i'm trying to run away from reality??? And now i'm still thinking of going to sentosa tomorrow and have some fun... am i that slack??? i just don't know why i can't concentrate on my studies... am i that playful? all my other friends are so hardworking not like me, play for whole day. i still have other problems that trouble me but i think i should put it aside and concentrate... No matter what i have to carry on with that kind of life... study and study to get a good certificate just for my future.

I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.

Love is the greatest feeling,
Love is like a play,
Love is what I feel for you,
Each and every day,
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song,
Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong,
I love you with my heart,
My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving,
Like a love I can't control,
So remember when your eyes meet mine,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you,
Right from the very start

It is probably not love that makes the world go around, but rather those mutually supportive alliances through which partners recognize their dependence on each other for the achievement of shared and private goals.

today i actually went to see sunset at punggol end... i went with qQ... we bought lots of tibits there... we seems like going there for a pinic then going there to see sunset... when the sun is going to set the clouds began to move... and the clouds covered the sun... that cause me not abele to see the sunset... have to go another time to see... i don't what had happen to me... i just want to see the sunset... maybe to relax myself... i feel very stress not only on studies and i think i have a lot of things troubling in me... just could not figure it out.<----- sometimes i feel that this picture can describe about me... although i may look happy outside but i feel like bashing up myself...haiz.

<------- find this pic familiar??? that's qQ idol... haha i think he's also my idol now. Influence by qQ...keke although people say he's not that good looking but i think that if like an idol dosen't mean that he has to be good looking... i apreciate his music talent. Haha... he's not that bad after all.

Ha this scenery very nice right??? today i don't know what's wrong with my mum... i think she's mad... or she have nothing to do??? today i'm so bored staying at home... haiz but i'm also lazy to go out... but whenever i stayed at home, i can feel that she is a nuisance to me... am i wrong by saying that? well i think a bit wrong only but it's true that she scold people for no reason and nag whole day... i did nothing wrong in the morning and got scolded fot nothing... a bit bu shuang but i bear with it and did not quarrel with her... there's a chinese saying: ren yi shi feng ping lang jing tui yi su hai kuo tian kong... actually today suppose to go to yee sin's house to watch the show that is unfinish but as gui zhi's cousin cam to her house, she need to teach her cousin wrok she can't go to yee sin's house. Then i rot at home for the whole day... this week is an one week holiday but i still have to go to school for p.o.a lesson on wed, thurs and fri... so sad =(... but i think it's good for me to brush up my worst subject... haiz...everyday before i went to sleep i will always think of something... there;s once i ask myself before i sleep... am i a good friend to others? i think i have lots of bad points that i can't count with my ten fingers but as for good points i can count within my ten fingers... that's how bad i think of myself... although i knew my bad points long time ago but i'm just too lazy to change myself. Maybe if there's incident that happen and is a big blow to me maybe i might change... erm i don't know what will happen in the future of maybe tomorrow... maybe there will be a drastic change in me?

Woh today i went back to the school to see the band and as well i played the trumpet. After their band practice we(qq, me, dian, gz,arn, yong bin) went to yee sin's house... till about 6 p.m we set off to winson's hse for house warming... but when we reached we dared not go in... think we are shy??? In the end we did not went in, we went to play bball straight away. It's been a long time i'va play bball for a long time... today i really enjoyed myself... thanks for those people who accompnied me for the whole day...hehe =P We played bball till abt 7 p.m... all of us were sweating like hell... we went in to winson's hse and have a wash up. Then i don't know why we decided to stay and have our dinner... during the dinner, we talked to each other. Ha long time never eat togetehr as a big group. Actually wanted to play ps 2 but winson's brother is playing so i did not get to play but never mind i played dai dee with qq, arn, gz... although i lose but also very happy. We stayed at his house at about 10.50 p.m... Haiz i'm thinking whether there's still other day like today or not.

Haha to day i'm so tired but yet a fruitful day for me... plus today is the last day of prelim... shake hand with david tao 3 times... haha... although he is not my idol but i don't know what is my purpose of going there... queuing up for that autograph session, i almost got killed... haha so squeezy... all i know is after this prelim i must go and relax myself if not i would go crazy... that qQ shouted so loud( so power sia???) but that was in the evening time... before that went to see that Energy. It's a waste of my time man...(waited for almost one hour like an idiot) and seated there and watch that show less then an hour... but today i feel that something is missing in me.

Today's s.s paper was a bit difficult... It was the first time i had ever finish that paper without any minutes left... Mrs Teo announced that we left eight minutes i 'm so scared cause i still have a lot to write... ='( By then i'm alraedy in a rush and i'm scribblling all over the paper. Don't even know the teacher can read my paper or maybe the teacher who mark my paper don't even have the mood to mark after seeing my untidy hand writing.

Haha today is the second last day of preliminary examination... so happy!!! It's so tiring in this time round of exams. Now me looks like panda... I'm going to sleep on Saturday to replenish my sleep... but as for now i have not start studying for tomorrow's paper, don't know why today i'm so slack or maybe tomorrow is the last paper then i'm so slack... During the holiday i still have to go back to school for p.o.a lessons... so pityful man. But during that holiday i'm sure to play basketball cause i long time never play already!!!

Today i went to play basketball with my cousins... it's been a long time i never play basketball liao.So happy... but i play till never study for tomorrow's paper... gonna die liao... this time sure fail till very badly de... well i only expect myself to pass but never expect myself to do well in this paper cause this subject is my worst among the rest. I regretted a lot of things in my life... haiz... =(

Sometimes the one you loves turns out to be the one who hurts you the most, and sometimes the friend who takes you into his arms and cries when you cry turns out to be the love that you never knew you wanted.

Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not wat you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.

A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for him, it's when he ignores you and still long for him. It's when he begins to love another and yet you still smile and say i'm happy for you.