Haiz... the darker side of my life is here... have to face another hard time again... a big blow for me on friday... got break down at that very moment when i received my result. Well life still have to carry on just that i will have to take a longer route than the others...

Results is coming out soon...i'm so scare! that kind of fear in my heart or mind i just can't simply describe... everybody say think positively n the brighter side of life... so what if we do or think that way? it just can't change the fact...well maybe it's telling us not to waste our life since we are born into this world... so what if we've failed? we still have to continue the present life we are having...if you or me don't like the present life, can just change the lifestyle of yours??? erm... maybe not everyone can do it. But getting that kinda of result(bad) will give you an attack u can't afford to take it...but what can we do??? as my teacher said life still goes on no matter what happened!

well what should i say? one of my colleague cry yesterday... haiz... i'm so scared siax! thought that i made her cried. but i don't know the reason behind it... curious to know why?? maybe i'm the culprit??? so dan xin her man... if suddeny people cry won't you be scare or ...? passer-by will think that you make that person cry and give you that kinda of weird looks on you...

today i flared up during going time after work... was i wrong to do that??? i think for quite a long time during my afternoon nap. Well maybe i'm just a crazy person who anyhow flared up for a small thing. but i can tell that my mood for today was really bad enough that i went home with a charcoal face and when i slept the colour was still the same... am i too stress up or not enough sleep for me nowadays? i don't have any answers for any of my questions... lots of questions are whriling in mind. hur maybe i really think too much and it's time for me to go I.M.H...

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A pic of when went down to orchard in a rush...

haiz today i was damn sad man!!! dunno how to describe my feeling today... juz know that my mood was not too good. Friends are leaving motorola and i don't know whether to continue or leave... really vexed!!! results coming out too... i think i may not be able to pass this time round...

Do human make use of one another??? can someone give me an answer to it??? i've no idea why...getting sick and tired of this environment... today finished work i have wounds n scratches here and there... haiz.. pain siax... even my t-shirt is torn...so sad... but basically what can i do with it? ha just nothing! well i suppose the t-shirt can be throw to one side... i have lots of questions n mind but just don't know how to ask or say it out... am i being too imaginative??? when i'm bored i think of all this foolish things...

Since i left sch... i missed e life in sch... it's really a different world frm schooling n wrking! wrking place got different kinds of ppl... meaning different characters n a lots to be mention... erm... i had met some interesting ppl n some tt iritates me a lot... haiz... although it's great to grow up but we still have to go through some tough journey in our life...i hate to grow up sometimes... dunno wat's wrong with me??? haha... well maybe i wrk to long liao nv rest enough till my brain damage...