Haiz at this time i should be in my dreamland but i'm still here. WHY? Cause of my stupid mum. Don't know what wrong with her. She just like to go crazy when she like. Never even do anything wrong, she will just pick on me. If not she will take out history and start scolding people. This kind of life how long must i tolerate it with??? With this kind of life, it makes me don't feel like staying at home. Hope school starts soon... i gonna bear for another day and i will not be facing my mum for the whole day! So i shall stop grumbling now...

Myself

Yoz i'm back from chalet. Conclusion: Overall okay but still bored for me. Only for one night yan zhen's friend drove up for a spin that was fun. Then got police check asked us come down... think the police thought i was a kid and why at this hour i was outside. Haha don't know the reason. Can't really remembered much. Only know that shiling fell down beside me.. Whaha! That was funny man... and for Eskae she very pityful man... got sore throat. after that we went to Geylang for yu tiao da wang... Hurhur. Then went back. Slept at abt 7 a.m. in the morning and woke up at what time i also don't know but i think it's around morning to early afternoon time. Me and xiao bai very ke lian had to share a sofa and sleep then when i woke up my back ache... haiz. but better than sleep on the floor. Bbq was just ok for me. Not much fun... Photos will be coming up that i took at the chalet...

Otah Otah Nice Nice

shiling n me

star by me, xiao bai, shiling, eskae, yanzhen

me n yan zhen

myself

sl, wl, me, esther, amanda

shiling, wailing, me, esther n amanda

last day of chalet

grp picture

me n esther

me n yan zhen

eskae n shiling

me n shiling

me n wailing

me n eskae

me n shiling

Tomorrow i will be going for chalet but i don't why i'm actually not excited for it. Hmmm... i managed to finish my Information Technology project today. I'm very satisfied of my this project. Haha... now i left with only one project left and that is Essential Communication. Well i think i should be able to finish it within the time given. Sianz xiao bai is only going to stay till wednesday night then she will be going home. But nevermind since she made up her mind i won't force her to stay. A... so wait for the day when i back to blog what will happen during these few days in chalet! Bye!!!

Haiz... i asked xb to stay throughout the chalet she dun wan... sianz. Haiz. Haiz. Haiz. Someone pls help me persuade her to stay! Haha i doubt who can help me worx.

My mood is getting from bad to worst. I don't know how to say or describe it out. Should i give up on this friendship? It's really making me very depressed and cause my everyday's mood foul. Well maybe i'm just being crazy... anyway what's happening to me? Can someone please tell me??? The holidays are approaching and i'm not eager for this coming holiday. That's not the usual me. Haiz... Well continue later go cut hair first.

Life for me in my new sch had give me another kind of life. But till something happened. I know i'm a pess person but i've tried to change myself and make myself happy everyday. But why must this kind of things happened on me? Really FUCK OFF man. Life had never been successful for me and why would this stupid stuff befalls on me? Damn it! I don't think i will give it a damn cause i wouldn't want to care. Hope i won't do something foolish like leaving my group of friends. I really felt that life is meaningless for me. I often asked myself why am i in this world and what the hell am i doing? Now i've regretted i think it's too late. I've wasted so many years of studying and in the end what did i got? Nothing but just a word failure that could described me. Just now when i was asleep i threw aside all those unhappy things and the time i woke up they bugged me again and thus it makes my heart feels heavy. Why won't they just leave me alone? That time my friendship with wailing had some problem with it but we resolved it and were back to normal. I was relieved and happy but now things happened i really have no confidence for this time round whether i can retrieve this friendship.
[Friendship is like a china cup, once broken can be mended, but the crack is always there.]

My friends finally become stead. Happy for them and congrats but soon unhappy things happened. Don't feel like mentioning much but it really makes me what... I don't know why A wants me to tag along with her today because A's bf is going for a jog. It's making me very extra lor... She won't understand cause she never stand in my position and think but i can't push all the blame to her lar. To me this time round to maintain this friendship i must try very hard. If not i can pull off from this friendship easily. But that's the result i wanted but if come to some circumstances i will do something that or i suppose we dont't like de things today. Today i cried out man but i don't think i will tell out the reason bah but think someone will know why i did that. On my way home i saw Joanna my sec school classmate. Woah seems like it's been a long time i've nv see her. Then throughout the journey we chatted... Haha i think it was my first time i'v nv slept in the bus.

For Chin Sook Ping: My japanese name is 原 Hara (wilderness) 弓美 Yumi (beautiful bow, as in bow and arrow).

For Chen Shuping :
My japanese name is 中島 Nakashima (center of the island) 歩 Ayumi (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).

Today was my Business Fundamentals CA. Yeah finally finished it at last. Feel happy after the CA and i don't intend to go home early so went to catch a movie with my classmates... xiao bai, eskae, edmund, wailing, tom, yan zhen. The movie we've watched was Anacondas. Hmmm... quite a nice one, not too bad. Story line was not that bad, so people out there who have not watch it you can consider about this movie.

Went to K Box again on 1/9/04... haha this time round we had 10 ppl gg...Woah a lot of ppl rite? Tis time round the room we were in was much more bigger than e last time i went... Oh ya 4gt to mention e ppl who went... they are me of coz haha... followed by eskae, yan zhen, yan zhen's bro, edmund, wailing, ya wei, tom, xiao bai, xiao bai's sis... Had lots of fun thr but it's really tiring for me... still can remember that edmund n wailing fight here n thr... haha... tink e nxt outing is chalet on Sep's holiday le... i will be looking forward for tt day to come... haha! today lesson was as usual nth special happens... as for tml i've got my business fundamentals CA. Hmmm... i wonder whether i can make it or survive through this ordeal... haha as if i'm having wat big disaster lyt... Well... shall continue some other time... back to revision~