My hamster, Teddy is at death's door soon. Ever since he was born in my family when i see him as a baby till now aged old. He's getting weaker and weaker. Yesterday i looked at him, he's actually purblind when i wish to stroke him. He can't even walk properly on his own. He can't even partake his own food or water as well. He's gonne leave our family and go to some excelling place. I hope he will leave this world with no agony. Teddy i'm really going to miss you when you are gone. You are the best hamster i ever had. I promised i will hold dear you in my mind.
I love you Teddy!
U made me fly and now u made me fall. U made me smile and now u made me cry. And now what? Floating aimlessly in a big ocean?
I'm sick but I'm still there.
Why?
You never know?
I'm coughing badly you never know
cause
I'm not place importantly there.
I saw what i should not
but
i still saw it.
What can i say?
But what i have to but still ...
What have i actually done?
I though i tried.
Is money what we talk about in this world? Or there's something else like true friendship or love? How will you define it? Money can buy contentment though it's short term but when all short terms adds up together it gives you long term. Is this really the right mindset that we should have? Must i really grow up and see all these fake stuffs? Human's nature... Evil and benevolent. Sell down the river, deception and doing all kinds of destructive things from evil side. Another side guess it's easier to apprehend?
How sad would it be to live in your own world? So pathetic and thinking everything should be in this way and everything you think, did and said is right? Oh gosh! Wake up from reality and stop day dreaming.
If i'm really important you would much care but ... i got it.
Listening to some Super Junior's song. I felt like there's thousands of knives piercing through. Slow and emo songs cannot really make me moody. What done cannot be undone and only to let go. No point hanging there and suffer. Year by year passed i'm still on the same spot. Why? I really don't know. Can someone lead me out and lead me on to let my life be better and better?
I dunno what to blog about. Just feel some stupidity in me. When you know it's wrong you will still go deep for it. And then what you have in the end is just some shit. I really can't understand. Is there really no trust? Doubts are everywhere. No specific time, no specific place. Ugly side of humans.
Last weekend was not too bad. Met my insurance agent on sat follow by accompanying Ling to trim her fringe. LOL! N then my brunch + dinner together at Sushi Tei. And home sweet home... By again i'm out for supper at Bedok. Haha! Awhile later it's Sun morning. Meeting my colleagues to Science centre for Body Worlds exhibit. Lunch was at some Korean restaurant in Bugis. High at Tea Dot, Illuma. Headed home around 5 pm plus.
