Soon 2011 will be ending. It's coming to end of May. What am i thinking now? You? Guess i should stop all the nonsense. All i thought im capable of but in fact im not. Ive to let myself out to the ocean. If one day im gone i hope my parents my love one would be able to see this post. My mum and my dad ive love you. Im sorry if i did things that make you both unhappy till any moment im still around but i do love you both. To my only sis i hope you really know what you want in your life and be happy for your new life soon. To my love woman, Lino i hope i can have the chance to take care of you even unhappiness has started and our relationship ended. I will leave you alone for now and just be one side. You are never alone as im always around if you need me. I will never be alone cause i have myself. To all my friends who will always be there for me, listening to my rubbish all year round i thank you all for being there. To me i've never really achieve what i really want. This time round after what this relationship ended it taught me alot. And even though i won't get to see her i will still place her in my heart no matter how she talk to me. I know she love me and really love me wholeheartedly. Guess that would be all for today.

Second time i puke sour liquid out in the morning not knowing why. Every morning i wake up i bound to think of you.

Friends out there I've really gotta change.
I must never be the same old me. I must not disappoint those who love me and pinned hope for me. I must really do it. I must and I
need to....

I'm just trying to recover. Why would the feel be back again? I broke down again today. I thought i can resist the stress but work makes me till the extend i can't take it. No more smiling face... My grey life.

专一不是一辈子只喜欢一个人，是喜欢一个人的时候一心一意、不离不弃

Something happened to me this morning which I Nv think tt will just happen? Well I'm gonna be alright because there's something very important waiting for me. It's abt my future happiness.

Sometimes i wonder am i giving people the wrong impression? Lesson starting tomorrow. I just feel so different. All those shadows of yours....

Mum and dad asked me why? I can't say. Sis came back... I told her. She's able to guess it's you. Mum said she Nv see me Lyt before. She asked me so many questions which I hold on not telling her the truth. I know she cares but I can't let her know. Mum said no matter what you still have daddy, me n sis. Mum wipe my tears and feed me with water. But still I'm emotionally unstable. Nevertheless I will buck up and fight for you. I will do it if I really love you.