Beer everyday w/o dinner even though i'm so sick. Down with fever, sore throat.. Now with flu.. Body is so weak, mind is so weak, heart is so weak..

I'm sad i'm really sad. God please take away my troubles, my sadness.. PLEASE!

It's time to blog. Guess i was drunk again last night? A terrible night again. Drank tequila shot for my first glass. Finish it with one glup. Well it's isn't so strong like the Fashion Bar. Then my colleagues open a bottle of chivas with mixers that's of course. But when my colleagues went to smoking room leaving one colleague and me. We drank Chivas on the rock. And we danced by ourselves. Though there's people looking at us but we don't care. One of my colleague's friend came. And she pour one cup of Chivas on the rock for me. I have to finish up cause that's being courtesy. And what she poured for me it's alot. And again i finished it up at once. Haha! I threw up again like mad. My colleagues sent me home. And i asked them to call my sis. Luckily my parents asleep. And my sis help me.. If not i'm gonna be DEAD! I was vomiting in the taxi on the way home too.. My head was spinning and spinning.. Don't even have the strength to walk. Walk in my room and just sleep without changing or what. Just dead drop on my bed. Guess i'm getting worse and worse. Life is worse and worse.