i know no matter what i do the outcome is still the same.. so now i rather don't do anything.. sick of it.. what's the use of me wanting to celebrating your birthday when you don't feel like celebrating with me? i think i got your answer.. well.. someone else broke my heart.. but so what? just wish him to stay happy.. as long i have my bunch of friends.. i'm still the happy me.. i'll make myself as happy as i can.. i don't wanna let myself sad again.. school work are driving me nuts.. yesterday when i was home alone.. i heard derrick singing liao jie.. i cried.. i dunno why. simply put in words.. i really need someone to be there for me.. i do have someone in mind.. but i don't think when i need help people will be there for me...

Now i'm at my grandma house.. Sianz using 56kps to surf internet.. lolX.. Holidays are coming.. Haiz.. Holidays so what? There's tonnes of homework waiting for me to finish.. Oh ya from now on i'll not interfere with whatever things to you unless you wanna me to help out... I really wish to help but it seems that you don't wanna accept my help.. Maybe in your mind there's somebody else... But i really hope you will accept my help and i do really wish to see a real happy you... I'm not sure whether you will read this entry too.. but this is the place for me to talk to myself.. lolX.. stress .. stress .. stress .. really hope there will always be somebody out there for me.. =( haha! but i still got myself to cheer myself up.. whaha! stupid!!

sianz lor.. can only manage to post two pictures up.. But nevermind i'll post some more next time.. so stay in tune!

[mE aNd mEimEi]

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Came back from school...Sianz. Squirrel said i'm very happy today.. Is it? Me myself also not sure about that.. Got things to say but haiz.. Problems to say out but also can't.. Haiz

Haha today is ray's birhtday.. Whaha HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! and... HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!! Went celebrating with eugene, hanyong and sujin for ray's birthday.. Went pastamania.. then catch a show.. the maid.. lolX! it was damn funny and haha scary.. Well.. my post will end here!! =) Hope all peeps around me will stay as joyful as they can!!! yeah!!!

I'm not sure wat happen now adays... Things not the same anymore.. Once my buddy and now is don't know i can confirm the answer about this friendship.. Haiz i was disappointed about what had happened.. Really! i don't how to solve it or rather i can't face the reality? Nah~ i'll solve it asap. But if you know who you are please reflect your thinkings.. I don't think i've done anything wrong and please if you're not happy with me just voice it out to me. Rather busy with studies now especially that stupid module costing.. damn difficult lor! what double entry? Haiz.. n i really doubt myself too.. Actually how many people do really believe me and treat me as friend? I know there is... But i will not mention it here. Things happened again and again.. And it's all e SUAY thing lor.. Haiz.. Why? But i'll not let myself suffer with all this kind of stupid stuffs.. Not worth it.. lolX.. btw tomorrow is Ray's birthday. I shall wish Ray happy advance birthday here... haha.. yar think that's all!