Hmmm... today is the second day of lunar new year. For the first day of chinese new year.. as usual it's that boring. Went grandma house. Everybody went to some other places and my parents and some other relatives went to the temple. I sat down in the living room alone and my handicapped uncle went to sleep. It was so so so boring for me! Time passed so slow and i could only eat and eat.


Today the time passed so fast. It was so different! HaHaX! There's lot of people coming in my grandma house. I was sweating and don't even had a place to sit down. Lolx... Few hours later we started to gamble... Hmmm... I did won some money but not as much as my cousin. I'm still missing you.. Early in the morning i woke uo i already started to miss you. I hope that valentine's day you will agree to spend with me... Love you!

I'm tired of myself. Haiz. Why must i let myself to be in such a trouble? I'm so stupid! Why can't i just let go?

Did you ever loved me before? It's almost two months since we last met. I guess you don't even think of meeting me up again... I'm really heart broken and sad. So what? Serve me right!


Do you ever know how much i desire to take a look at you even if it's just a few seconds? Well this may be a small little impossible wish of mine. How much i say maybe you just don't feel it. I may be tire but my love for you never dies. For now i'm not even worth to be your friend. I may sound pessimistic at every entries but i'm trying not to be.. I must live happily as what you asked me to. My happiness, sadness may be nothing to you... But yours is my everything. Arghx! What's the use of saying all these?

Had not been sleeping well last night. Don't know why... Haiz.. Now i feeling so lethargic. No mood for my smart ledger lesson now. Missing you now and then. So tired after running 2.4 for that stupid nafa. Well my results is not too bad... 13.02 minutes.. Lolx. Think i've grow taller and heavier a bit. While running my ankle started to pain because of the friction with my shoes and ankle. Well now my ankle is injured. Even with plaster on it's still that pain. Haiz.. I'm tired.. Very tired! Read your blog... you mentioned that you're stress and stomach not feeling well... Can't do anything to help you. The only thing i can say is take care of yourself and learn to relax. When it's time to sleep go sleep. Don't always stay up late. I wanna take care of you this whole life and if it's possible next next next life also.

Don't know whether i should continue blogging or not. All these while i'm blogging aout you. Nothing but you...! Wanted to message you badly. But i just have to control myself. When i told you i must refrain myself from messaging you... I guessed you don't know how miserable i was when i told you that.

I've passed my basic theory test. OMG! Can you believe it? Lolx... Another thing is i've got back my audit common test paper. Hmmmm... Very surprisingly, out of 20 marks i've got 17.5 marks. Should be happy for that.. but i don't know why i'm just not. Shall say no more. Guessed you know what i'm talking about. Only you know what i'm talking about. Whatever more thing i say also the same.

Hmmm... actually I know you don't miss me don't love me. For now or even later. If you feel that you like that person... i guess you know who that person is... If you really have feeling for that person then go ahead. You'll have my blessing. I can't force you in anything as I've said before. But no matter what i still love you!


Just now i had my sports and wellness. Lolx it rained! As what i wanted. But in the end we still have to train for the six items... At the beginning is just warming up. Followed by item by item. Firstly is inclined pull-up. I was the last one. Saw so many people struggling with it and i thought i can't do it too. Till it's my friend, Esther's turn.. something happened. She knocked onto the bar... Lolx... I was laughing there very loudly... So... i waited.. Finally it's my turn! I proceeded to the inclined thing carefully... thought i lied down okay liao but in the end ... my cheecks bang on that bar... Lolx! Everybody laughed... Haha. Planned to tell you. But i think it's redundant. Haha... I was so pai seh. Hurhur... Then now i knew my account common test mark. Sianz.. i very sianz. Only managed to score 87. That's low. Then later got basic theory.. I HAVEN'T STUDY!!! Tomorrow got audit common test. I'm so nervous siaz... Scared i will forget everything...

[I miss you!]

I'm always last in your list cause I'm someone who's really not important. Well it doesn't matter. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I love you more than anything but I don't know how long can I last. Maybe that day is coming soon. With me or without, in your life it don't make any difference. I care alot for you snd I think you can feel it. My question to you never seems to have an answer. It's always left hanging there. Sometimes maybe if I really let go things will not be so terrible for me. And if I let go there's still someone else to care for you. Maybe things won't be the same like you and me. I'm not sure if you happen to read this what will your feeling be like. Maybe angry, pissed off or you may think I think too much again. Every post about you is my heartfelt words. My motto for my life for the time being is your happiness is my fist piority

Had my account common test on thurs. The day before i studied so hard for it and missed my show. Slept around 12 am but guessed what happened? When i was asleep suddenly my stomach pain like hell. I told myself i was dreaming so that i can continue sleeping but the pain worsen. It's 1.30 am! And the pain last for like an hour. OMG! I've to wake up at six in the morning. The moment i wake up i'm so sleepy. For the sake of my full marks i drank one bottle of chicken essence. Guessed what happened next? The paper was so easy and the day before my teacher gave us worksheet similar to it and i still can flunk? Damn it right? I dropped a tear when i knew i can't score full marks. Well maybe i'm just too stress or maybe i'm over concerned about this test. My friend asked me to treat the test like how we practice in class... I wanted to told that person about what happened. And i considered for awhile i told that person. That person is the first person to be in my mind. Well... after that lesson as usual and i was frowning like siao. After that all my friends said i'm crazy. Me myself also think so. I'm such a weakling... a small matter like that can make me crazy. I wonder if anything serious happen how am i going to handle it...


That person sms me yesterday... I was like.. Hmmmm... I tried calling back at once but i just can't get connect to that person. And soon i sms that person and asked what happened? I knew i can't make you happy and i don't know how to console you. I can only let you feel that when something happened i'll always be the 1st to be there for you... Just wanna see you always happy. I miss you... I love you too!

Waited for so long then i can blog. Hmmm... thinking of being together with you, enjoying every moment with you... But all is just a dream of mine. Let someone give me a tight slap to wake me up from it. Going to be very busy for this month... having common test every week after that then flea market. Haiz... Going to mad soon. Stress!!! Missing you always and always!

Hmmm... got the chance to post but... all the stuffs i wanna blog is gone. Haha! Oh ya Happy New Year to everybody! Lolx! Missing you, thinking of you is all i can do... Haha! trying to let your life to be as colourful as rainbow is what i'm going to learn. I knew you never read my blog but it's ok. Well and maybe you don't need me to colour your life too.. Haha! Just don't want to see you sad. Wanna you to be as happy like a bird! haha... ur happiness is my 1st priority. Everything i do is all for your sake... Maybe i'm wrong i don't know. But maybe one day if you're reading it... haha... like that lor. so what? i just simply love you.