Hmmm.. never sleep last night. Early in the morning have to wake up and go to grandma's house. Mum bluffed me.. Say she will go later. In the end, there's only me. Went there to help out. Did i really help out? Sent my cousin to school and went to market to buy lunch for my grandma, uncle and the maid. 3 bus stops away. The weather was so hot! Sweat alot. Went back and rest.. Then grandma boiled two eggs for me to eat cause it's my lunar birthday today.. That two eggs.. MY LUNCH! Lolx. Time's up. Went to fetch my cousin from school back home. That's really how my day passed.

Freaking hell... Sometimes i really dread of talking to you. I don't know why. Feel that you're a total stranger to me. Sometimes i really hate seeing you. Do i really know you? Do i?!?! When you don't mean anything don't say it out. Don't hurt anybody. Don't try to act like an angel cause you're just not one! Yar life changes.. And every minute people are changing. Just like people around me. How they treat me for one day and the other day. The difference is so big!! Asshole! Know what's that? If you don't then you are so damn pathetic. Anyway as i've said before how badly you treat people you will sure get your retribution! It's on the way!

Myself back home...





Me and Wei Sheng at Cuppage Plaza S-11
At Grapevine

Went for movie yesterday... x-men 3..Watched it at cine leisure...There's Wei Sheng, Aaron, Yao Ming, Winson, William, Sujin, Wei ye, Gui Zhi, Yee Sin. Woah it was full house if i'm not wrong. We went in and... it was like.. how shall i say? I think there's people sitting wrongly at our seats but they showed us their tickets it's correct. So we went out again.. As we walked out, we're thinking did we enter the wrong cinema? So we went to ask people working there... In the end i think is either they entered the wrong cinema, sitted at the wrong seats or come in at the wrong timing. The show was a hilarious, sad and very action one! Haha! Ai ai de jean.. Referring to someone else.. After the movie we discussed where to go.. Due to a big group like us, in the end always come to no decision. We walked here and there.. ended up at Cuppage Plaza. S-11... Whaha! Some of them are tired so off they go when the rest of us went for the mind cafe.. We (Gui Zhi, Sujin, Wei ye, Yee Sin and me!) reached there, it was full house.. And there's six in the waiting list. So we decided not to stay. And we continued our journey. Want to take cab but there so many people waiting for it. As a result we took a bus. On the way, we discussed again.. Dots. -_-ll Shall we go to Grapevine or Bliss? Grapevine! Went there.. sat down.. drink drink drink... Fosters! Two jugs of it.. Initially wanted to play indian poker but ended up playing a game that Sujin introduced to us. It's was more interesting and exciting than heart attack and indian poker.. To me, this game from Sujin is testing how scheming, how careful, how alert you are. Hurhur! The loser had to to forfeit. So the person is Gui Zhi! Had her stand in the middle of Grapevine and shout the person she like then kiss the center of the mug passionately for 30 seconds... OMG! Anyway.. guys that session at Grapevine was really a nice one! Hope the next session is coming soon? Reached home at about 3 am plus? Not sure about the time as i'm so tired beat. But i still slept at 6 am. Think i'm going back to sleep later.. Will be posting those pictures up later... =)

Went meeting jie today at Bugis... Accompanied her to buy her stuffs and do the neccessary things. St met us after my dinner with jie at MOS. Even i'm sick i still ate fries and cold drinks... Walk here and there.. Haha! Jie had her manicure. I was like smelling the nail polish.. Like taking drugs like that. After that we went home at about 9 pm plus? Reach Hougang at about 10 pm plus.. St and me went Bliss for a drink.. Ordered a jug of Fosters and BBQ chips.. And we chatted till going to 12 midnight? We left Bliss and headed to 7-11. As St wanna buy beer again... She's so vexed that she wanna drink to forget her troubles.. I was there asking her not to drink too much cause it really don't help. Drinking don't help you forget a person.. As you drink you are just thinking of the person.. In your life there's other things for you to accomplish. No use drinking so much. And i really like you! I don't wish to be together with you.. I just hope you give me the chance to make you happy, care and concern for you.. That's all. Nothing much. Hope you really know what i'm trying to say. I'm quite tired now.. I'm sad, moody.. But i will not let myself be drunk as it's not the best way out..

Sometimes communicating with people in msn and sms are so emotionless.. People do misunderstood how you are feeling when you are talking to them.. And sometimes you don't mean it that way and the person just force through to say you are. And because of that it's useless to say whatever things. Rather than wasting energy telling the person that you don't mean it or what, i think it's better for me to do other meaningful stuffs. Life is never fair to everybody. Once you see someone is better off than you, you just feel that you are so unlucky. You are wrong somewhere somehow. Cause you are just seeing one side of it. You'll never know the difficulties of that person who's life is better off than you. It's alright to complain how your life sucks.. But when you do really stop and think, you will really find that how interesting your life will be.. it all depends on how you going to create it or how you going to plan your life to be. Never ever treat a person badly or do something wrongly cause i believe there's retribution in this world.

Why do things have to turn out this way? Why? I'm so moody now. I don't know if i've grow up.. Somethings i heard of really pissed me off.. I felt that it's kinda of childish. Really. Am i too old for you guys? Or all of you are too young for me? Haiz... Anyway if people around me dislike me or hate me i won't stop anyone of you. Feel free and go ahead with it. Just don't what to say and sometimes when you are defending yourself it just seems useless. In the past to me, if you ever betrayed me or treat me badly i will treat you doubly bad. But now no more. No matter how you treat me now i've no feeling anymore. I'm numb. Maybe not to everybody but mostly to all i think. Caring and concern for people around me is some basic things i will do. But if you don't appreciate it please tell me. I'll stop caring about people who just don't appreciate. I think of people around me.. And if think i don't, tell me. I will stop thinking of you! To some of you i'm some kind of person with lousy character or whatever stuffs. And if you really think that just stay away from my life. Don't step into my life. I hate people who are so fake!! Don't ever lie to me cause i do really hate people that lie to me! I will always be there for you.. Unless my parents restricted me to go out. If you call me i'll sure pick up your call and listen to what you want to say unless my phone run outs of battery. I can lend my shoulders to you when you are sad unless you don't want it. I can give you tissues when you cry.. If i don't have any, i'll lend you my shirt. Say so much also useless.. I'll do what i can do. If you don't feel it or don't appreciate.. I just don't know what to say and what to do anymore. Saying so much is useless because actions speak louder than words.

Woke up at 3 pm plus? I was still tired. Went out meeting st and headed to badminton area. I never play cause i lost interest in doing whatever things today. Drank abit? Yup.. And guess my day ends here. A better tomorrow is waiting for me.. Today just sucks!

I never knew that you think of me like this. You're annoyed and irritated because of me? I'm not sure whether is it me but i've just got that feeling it's me. Are you really thinking like that? I just want to care for you.. Fine.. Hate me.. Dislike me all you want. I just can't be bothered anymore.. I'm just very now.. After seeing what you've wrote. Am i wrong?!

After teaching Agnes accounts, i met ys for dinner at Hougang mall area for dinner.. Was discussing where to go after dinner. Today no band and i don't want to stay at home.. Still can't decide what to do.. In the end landed in my house.. About 8pm plus still no idea what to do.. In the end ys went home. Oh during the period in my house we chatted with ym then they suggested for movie.. but it's like all fully book. Then ym say that after they decide liao they call us.. So i went to play o2jam. Half way playing through, ym call me and say... they now at my house here.. I was -_-ll.. Call earlier mah.. They drive leh.. I still need to style my hair and all that.. Haha! I managed to get down as soon as possible. Off we go! Went to fetch ys.. Then on the way to amk, Daniel suggested Alvin to drive too.. So Daniel drove us to Alvin's house to get car.. ys and i choose to sit in Alvin's car.. Plainly because i don't want to vomit. LolX =Xx Okay now then we really head to amk.. Wanted to trick gz that we never go but Daniel and ym told her.. Arghx! Not fun at all. Reached Cuppage Plaza at around 10 pm plus.. Book the room at 11 pm? So we wander around here and there.. Wanted to play pool but it was like 8 bucks per hour? Walked here and there.. Time's up.. Up we go! Singing session.. Forget to mention we went Party World.. I was down with flu and coughing all the way and i still went singing. Crazy me! Haha! Sang One night in Beijing again! Haha.. Machi DiDi.. forgot about the rap behind.. so sad.. too long never sing that song.. I sang the lowest range and the highest range during our singing session. Daniel say my low can compare with them.. Hurhur~ Then the highest range of i sang in for The Phantom of the opera.. Woah! Really high lo! Anyway the singing session with Alvin, Aaron, Daniel, Gui Zhi, Han Yong, Yee Sin, Wei Sheng, Wei Ye and Yao Ming was a great one. Finised singing at 3 am? Ya i think so. Went for our supper at Geylang.. Had beancurd... Then we went to the street opposite for Hor Fun? Guess what the Hor Fun was the most expensive i ever ate before...

You're yellow, the color of joy and energy — two things you definitely bring to everyone around you. It's hard for anyone to be sad or lonely in your presence; your sunny disposition and cheery outlook just won't allow it.

Just wake up... Sianz. I'm having fever right now.. And my mum is out. Nobody's at home. Think if after eating KFC yesterday then i'm like that. Haiz... Gotta rest for don't know how many weeks again. =(

Met up with st for dinner.. long time no see.. Haha! Went KFC for dinner despite that i'm sick. One week plus i've never touch fried stuffs. Hope tomorrow my throat will not be worse. I hate my English standard. So singlish... Freak! I'll brush up my English. Chatted with st.. Really glad that i got to know her. It's like those feeling that i've can't explain. It's different from other friends. I mean.. I don't know how to say. Maybe it's because i've never see her for a long time. But we still keep in contact. Nice meeting you up! LolX..What happen to those days when we're in secondary school..? The bunch of friends that use to stay together, play together, hang out together? Everything changes.. We all are on our different paths. If you really think of the friendship or whatever stuff.. you'll make that small effort in contacting each other. Well i keep hearing guys say what you all seldom talk to each other.. And when you seldom talk, you seldom meet up.. and so all of you becomes strangers. Why? Can't everyone just think of the past? The up and down we had? But well that's is just what i just want to say. Purely my point of view... I mean i hate to see people around me having this kind of problem. Friends... If you really get to meet each other and be friends.. this is fate. It's really not easy to be friends. So cherish what you have now. Don't regret it. I really wish that my friends around me having greater life than me. Wish all of them are happy all time round.

shui ye bu neng zhu dang wo yong yuan bao hu ni... from my friend.. Hmmm... so tired of protecting people. Sometimes when you are doing this, you may be hurt from it.

Well.. today is a happy day! Went to pasir ris downtown east.. Lemon Grass for lunch. A treat from my sister as a celebration for Mother's day. So sad i'm too poor to fork out any money. But rest assured i'll treat my family members once i've got my pay. I was so full after eating all those delicacies. Haha.. Know what the bill was like 100 over bucks. Wanted to order white wine but my mum don't allowed me. Cause i was still sick. So sad.. After that pool session with my dad and sis. My mum don't know how to play so she sat aside to watch us play. Sis' boyfriend join us later.. Ya.. after lunch. Hmmm... He's so pro in pool. I was like a noob playing with him. After that i decided to play the street basketball game in the arcade. I played for three times and my arms were so tired. Haha.. sis's boyfriend said i was accurate in shooting. Haha.. Then back home with my parents. On the way back, dad asked whether want to buy monitor.. Then we headed to Harvey Norman and shop for the neccessary stuffs. Bought lcd monitor, speakers, keyboard and mouse. Carried it home and got it fixed up. A call by my aunt, asking us to go over grandma's house for Mother's day celebration.. So went out again and eat.. Stayed there for less than an hour i went off meeting Yuan Zhi at Punggol Park. Sat down at Bliss.. Ordered red wine... Drink and talk.. Soon Wei Ye, Ray and Han Yong joined us.. After chatting we went for a stroll at Punggol Park.. Then bye bye to each other. So that's how my day starts and ends...

Met up with Wai Ling for dinner yesterday. Unexpectedly Wei ya called... So in the end Wai Ling and me went to join Wei Ye and the rest at Coconut Groove. After so long finally get to go Coconut Groove but i'm sick. Restricted to many choices of food. Only can eat spaghetti.. After eating i was still hungry. Planned to order cakes.. Went to see the display.. There's nothing left. When we were about to leave i saw them displaying the cakes. -_-ll Never mind... After that we sat at the bus stop.. Waiting for Gui Zhi.. After that they just hopped onto bus 82.. Dots then all the way go to Punggol End. Strolled here and there then back to my hometown. Went Cheers to buy things to eat.. Haha! Went home after chatting cause i was sick. The rest went for mahjong session. I'm still sick! Arghx!

I think by tomorrow i will lost my voice. I've realise no matter how good you treat that person it's useless. If the person don't treasure you, don't even sense your presence when you are around and blah blah blah it really shows that you are really not important. Don't know why now i really hate people take me for granted. Put yourself in others shoes.. Well i always think of that.. That's why i want to make people around me to be happy. But i only know how to make them happy.. And i don't know how to make myself happy and others don't even make me happy. Well i'm not saying everybody. Maybe i'm too free nowadays.. My mind likes to wander around. But after lots of thinking, what i said is true. At least to me is a yes. Having headache now.. don't think i will continue any further.

I'm utterly disappointed in you. I really hates that person to the core! I try not to have any vulgarities here. What you promised always an empty one! Sorry really doesn't help anything. I was like hoping the day really come. And because of that stupid person everything being cancelled? I told u losing me is just a matter of time. Meanwhile whenever i'm talking to you i'm already sianz... I think i have started to hate you because of that person. I don't think i'm in the wrong. I'm saying out how i feel now. I don't care if you happen to read this you will be angry, sad or what? If you are go ahead and tell that person all you want! I'm tired of all these stupid stuffs. I just a normal human.. Don't really expect that i can tolerate everything or whatever shit! I can tolerate... I've patience... But if you really want to test me please think twice.



If i like you i really like you. I don't mean any other things. I just simply like you. I don't know what you are thinking. Because i'm stupid so i can't guess what you are thinking. I'm a very straight forward person. I will say what i want to say. I'm sure i'm honest too.. i never ever cheated you once. I treated you the best.. in case you don't know. I know my ITE bunch of friends know that. Anyway i'm lethargic.. Haiz

Freak! I'm so sick now... My throat is in pain! =(

I'm really sorry. I've never say sorry till like that. It means i really care about you. But well if you decided not to accept my apologies then i don't know what more to do. Everything's my fault... Sorry!

Was disappointed when i read it. I've asked my friend to let me try once because of you. My friend scolded me... And yesterday they said i'm the next one to pick up smoking soon... Whatever...

Went Kenny Roger for lunch? Haha! When we decided what to settle for lunch it's already four in the afternoon if i did not remember wrongly. Crapping again and as usual laming session. Whaha! After that i've to go for my friend's chalet. Hmmm.. Happy belated birthday Wai Ling! I decided not to reach there early so i took train from City Hall to Ang Mo Kio... take bus 88. Then my friend called me... They asked me where am i? So coincidence i'm at the same place as them and so we took cab to the chalet. Well it's quite a ok one. Long time never see them.. Took lots of photos and chatted about our future and so so... I'm really so tired! Sleeping time for me! All the best to ya pals!!

I've finally received letter from the police side. Should be happy but i'm not. Why? Don't know.. Mixed feelings... Hmmm... Have to go for assessment on next Tue from 9 am to 6 pm.. Sure a long one! The assessment include verification of documents, physical assessments, english proficiency test, if required and psychometric test... I do hope i can get in after all these assessment... I don't know whether you are fine now. But please take care of yourself. I'm worried about you. Haha... i'm so worried about myself still have to worried about you. Can't even take care of myself still want to take care of people. Lolx!

Yesterday was a scary one! Thought my computer spoils again. Phew! I woke up the first thing is to switch on the computer.. And it restarts again and again and FINALLY it works!

Yesterday i woke up e most earliest day after i've no school. Actually is i never sleep. Walk from my house to somewhere near Montfort. Woah! The most hardworking day of me? =X Waited from 7 am plus till 8 am plus... Still never get to see you. I wonder are you really sick? Then you told me you on the bus.. I was like.. Haha! Never mind. I've got lots of patience. To you only. Went grandma house to help out with whatever i can... Then met up with Stephanie for pool... Hmmm... Kinda tired teaching you... Haha... no offence. You're not lousy just that you gotta practice.. No one born to know how to play pool. Anyway i'm also that lousy.. No rights to comment on anybody. And i'm longing to play pool with Karen...

Seriously i miss you guys... My group of friends in ite. Life is really great with you guys. Without you guys.. school will definitely be damn boring! I'm looking forward to the next meeting with you guys! And Karen I MISS YOU! Whaha!