I guess it doesn't matter whether it's visible

好辛苦。 好痛。。。

生病了。 肚子疼及发烧。。。

现在赶去看医生咯。

My stomach is making not sleeping well during the middle of the night. Till now i still don't feel well. Do i really have gastric now? But i did ate my meals. Been moody for like this few days. Well well...

This was abstract from my senior's blog which after i read it it filled me with anger and heartache.

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You'll Never Walk Alone
What was unreported was that he was sent out on the navigation exercise in a group of four, and was only discovered to be missing at some point in time. The members retraced their route and found him unconscious approximately 10 minutes later (presumably at about 5.11 pm). Junsheng must have been alone for that duration of their retracing at the very least, possibly longer! And that delay would have drastically lowered his chance of survival even with CPR administered immediately after they found him! How long had he been alone? Why didn't they notice his disappearance? How alone he must have felt then... They walked without him... An irony, indeed, for a person whose favourite football team spots the motto "You'll Never Walk Alone."
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What am I truly? I really feel that I'm nothing. Jun sheng pls be happy over the other side. We will all be strong here... I've so many feelings in me now. It really makes me think alot.

We've finished our songs for him. I hope thats what we can least do for him. Be strong over the other end and of coz stay happy. Guess lots of things are on my mind. Eyes are so tired and swollen. I guess... I've never felt this way before.

I feel so lousy. Emotions aren't beyond my control now. I can't help it. The feeling of losing is so scary. Some words are just making me have the fear. Little things or stuff i hear can just make my tears flow.

I've never had this feeling before. On my way to work and i receive a sms from Yong Bin. He told me Chun Sheng passed away. I was so shocked and goosebumps were all over me. It's like... i don't know what to say. How can one who is so healthy, who really can cycle for a long distance just can't make it for navigation exercise? Is army going to cover up all the truth and just let one more life gone for nothing? All they could say is heat stroke or blah blah blah... One down and they will stop army training for just a day. What did they do to prevent this? I guess there's nothing... Seriously not in the mood for work or anything. I had to say Chun Sheng you are really my good friend and good junior. Rest in peace and you will always be remembered by me.