I make a mess on myself when I can't get home on time for my tummy ache.. What a day to end.

Can i just leave everything here and just run away? I don't wish to stay here or face any other things. I'm in agony. I really feel like resting aside thinking about nothing.

Have been watching Taiwan drama 无限爱 recently. Guess i'm so bored in life huh? But well this drama make me reminisce of the past. Sometimes i can say when i'm bored my brain just go around thinking of things that are so unimportant now. Especially when i'm on medical leave yesterday and i'm home letting my brain to be so creative. And i've gone through what i'm suppose to do. Things that i should give up and things i should hold on to. I'm still running around this old and small circle of mine. I must break free and not run in a circle i shld run in a line where it will always lead you forward. A line that can only bring you back to the past or the future. A choice that you yourself to choose it. People can stay their life in happiness and why should you keep yourself in misery? Imagine me still there to care about all these but it doesn't seems to show any result. Peer pressure, family pressure, work pressure, all kinds of pressures and so? I can't comment anything for now as i'm lost with no answer but i will come to an answer soon.

If there's loves there won't be rules. If there's rules it's a game.

So what can you do when someone tells you i don't know? Once it's okay. What about twice a day? And probably you have to answer for it to your superior. It just makes my blood rush all the way up till i'm fucking pissed and tears just well up. Only way to release my anger is to punch the wall. I feel the pain when it was done and so there's only pain and no anger. I know that's a stupid way but what can i do? Little knuckle having bruise. Poor knuckle....

Gz i agree to your this post.



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When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need..

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replaced
When you love someone but it goes to waste
What could be worse?

Fix you - Coldplay

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For all of the time that i tried for your smile
For making you think that i was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And I'm So sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love,for wasting your time
And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
I'm so sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And apology now after all of this time
Won't make my difference tonight
But I'm hoping I'm Sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life
Sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry do can't turn back time
I'm sorry that i loved you
I'm sorry that i hurt you
I'm so sorry that i loved you
I'm sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i loved you

I don't know why i feel so moodless and lethargic. Simply not smiling in my heart. I can't describe this feeling. Just wanna go home and sleep. The small corner of mine.

I've receive one module of my last semester result. Sigh. Another one to go.