I'm heading back to where I came from. I gonna be way up to where I need to climb and not back to the place I used to be in. And most importantly I have to erase away people who are not worthy to be in my life. 

I think I really don't need fake people coming into my life anymore. Those who really don't know who I am can really go away. And those who I want you to stay and so much try to let you stay, you still wish to leave go ahead.

My whole life is in a mess now ever since last year. Seriously I need to do something about it before I go crazy every single day. I have to set what's right back to my life. A life that has always been quiet and peaceful. If I'm one who's never ever worth staying in your life then please don't come into my life again to disturb. Just get lost and get along with your life. By the way being practical is so much so needed in this world. When you need to dream, yes you can but when it's time please be awake by giving yourself time limit.

I hate myself after knowing so much. I wanna change. Change and change! I love you yes I do. There's no doubt to it when promises of mine was given to you. But to think logically today I think some sense had wake me up. Though I'm soft hearted but it might just trigger me not to anymore. 

Tears flows unintentionally from time to time. It's not like I want it to.. It's just does. Heart feels the pain as of knife stabbing in. I can feel your pain. It's so painful that I must keep trying to breathe. What's wrong, what's wrong? What I'm promising this time round it's for real.

I felt helpless when I need it. I really wish I could tell everything to my parents how I feel. I realized my biggest mistake for us only recently. I'm really helpless. I'm drowning to the deepest of the sea where I don't wish to be saved.